Wholly broken, sweetly surrendered.

Well I’ve been back from Burundi for a month, today. And as much as a was anxious to get home while I was there, I have spent many days wishing I was back there. Life’s been a little rough and tumble back here in Belton, but God is still sovereign and even though my heart is begrudgingly learning. He’s teaching me. 

I skipped church yesterday and went to a park in Temple to just sit with the Lord and read my bible and journal. Something the Lord really spoke over me as I prayed and read scripture was this,  anger and bitterness are not justified in His kingdom. The Father justifies my pain, and hurt. But anger and bitterness towards others are simply not of Him. Because we have a just God, and He has called me to love others as Christ, and who am I to say that people don’t deserve grace? That’s nothing but my own pride, and self-righteousness. I wish that was as easy to say as it is to do. But it’s definitely driven me to my knees, knowing there’s no way I can do this without Him.

This is really scrambly. 

I thought I’d share two scriptures the Lord has really impacted me with this past week, and maybe He’ll use them to minister to whoever decides to read this too.

“But it is wrong to say God doesn’t listen, to say the Almighty isn’t concerned. And it is even more false to say He doesn’t see what is going on…” Job 35:13&14

“The unfailing love of the Lord never ends! By His mercies we have been kept from complete destruction. Great is His faithfulness; His mercies begin afresh each day. I say to myself, “The Lord is my inheritance; therefore, I will hope in Him!” The Lord is wonderfully good to those who wait for Him and seek Him. So it is good to wait quietly for salvation from the Lord. And it is good for the young to submit to the yoke of His discipline. Let them sit alone in silence beneath the Lord’s demands. Let them lie face down in the dust; then at last there is hope for them. Let them turn the other cheek to those who strike them. Let them accept the insults of their enemies. For the Lord does not abandon anyone forever. Though He brings grief, He also shows compassion according to the greatness of His unfailing love.” Lamentations 3:22-32

The Lord is good all the time. Even when I don’t see it. He’ll never abandon me. He is my inheritance. And I lay humbled and surrendered at His feet today knowing I have no other hope, but Him.